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365 Letters to Myself

February 19th - Dare to feel the feelings...

Is this daring me, directly – as someone who keeps feelings in most situations well-guarded. I am someone though that is not as shy when it comes to taking a risk otherwise. What is this saying?

When I attempt to understand the ‘lack’ of feelings, I can see a path for how it came to be. It seems I had a difficult time developing a mother-daughter bond, with the perfect brother before me and a pregnancy/traumatic premature birth of my sister at 3 years old – my coping apparently was to become independent, strong, pleasing, steady, separate. It has served me, my career and life as I strive to achieve, because it comes natural. I like being independent, strong and steady. I have had to learn to be less a people pleaser and more my own self. I am learning to realize how separation allows me to protect being hurt. Through it all, there has been plenty of times, I wish I dared to feel more presence, more emotionally – in key situations.

Given that I am capable of seeing a dare through (aka risk), I suppose it is possible to and I do occasionally, attempt to feel the feeling. A significant life change will do that to you. When the opportunity lies before you to write a second chapter a fair amount of introspective goes on, along with insight on what I want to do with this new knowledge. A couple cracks exposed but absolutely no crumbling!

There are no chapters that cannot be written, just ones that will not be unwritten.

Hmmm, or live with the results…day 209!

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