365 Letters to Myself
Updated: Aug 6, 2022
July 26th, Say it out loud...
Met with a client (turned friend!!) today and somehow the conversation turned to expressing how we feel out loud. Tears came to her eyes as she mentioned the dagger that still pierces her heart because her father never spoke the words for her to hear… “I love you”. She is in her more senior years, but you would have thought it happen yesterday. In lieu of this, it is part of her daily mission, the business she is building, to make sure to speak up when she has a feeling about someone and practice the act of caring for others in a manner they know it… as she warmly said to me, “I am so glad to have you in my life”, with a big genuine smile.
In my typical way, and perhaps because I came from a family that was not big on compliments, saying the good things out loud to each other, or showing gestures of affection consistently – I must remind myself to stop and hear what was spoken to me versus my instinct to not internalize it. What a wonderful thing to say to someone, and at a time in my life when I often question its truth, being estranged from my siblings, jockeyed by my mom, and moved on from those that were so much a part of my stolen career. I returned the sentiment, “very happy to have you in my life”, sincerely meant, but I did not meet her passion-why?! We compared how I in the safe space of ‘my work’, with friends, can speak more freely. The more significant in my life – sometimes it is harder to say what should be spoken out loud, in the moment it is possible to.
What an abundant opportunity to keep working on this, both hearing and speaking. Truly blessed to be right where I am, with who I am, at this time! Tearfully.
Hmmm, hear what is spoken…day 14!
Thank you if you choose to join the journey. Let's hope it is more fun than tears!