365 Letters to Myself
Updated: Apr 7
March 19th - Goodbye...
On a roll of insights. While spending time with a friend last night, we revisited a story told to us earlier in the week about a missed opportunity to say, goodbye. It weighed on the teller.
As we empathized with the storyteller, I recognized this has happened in my life, a lot. I started thinking about the more recent occasions, remembering the past ones and how I do not do well in the absence of closure. I obsess. But must also admit, unless it is a welcomed goodbye, how often is there a satisfying one? It weighs on me.
The lawyer had to approve the 2-3 sentences to my team, my vendors – keeping my sentiments very surface. Is there such a thing as actually saying goodbye to siblings – seems like because you share a bloodline, nothing is ever really final. Interestingly, after 10 years, I was able to find an acceptable closure with my first love. When the ‘right’ time came, an opportunity to share more ‘parting’ thoughts with some (not all) of those I considered more than work colleagues that spanned decades. Curiously in these situations, it seemed to mostly bother me – others appeared to accept, and cope unweighted.
More insights to work through. What lies behind desired closure, is it necessary? I wonder about putting myself in a situation where parting will without doubt be heart wrenching.
Goodbye or 'until we see each other again'.
Hmmm, doesn't mean forever…day 228!
Thank you if you choose to join the journey. Let's hope it is more fun than tears!