365 Letters to Myself
Updated: Aug 27, 2022
August 21st, Suffering...
I must give it to father again to have a relevant, practical sermon today. Based on a reading about discipline, he discussed ‘suffering’. He began by reminding us of the obvious presence of suffering and then broke down 3 possible categories. In a nutshell, suffering happens for the potential outcomes from it.
There are those that will suffer because they have no relationship with God, those that may as an opportunity to improve a relationship with God, and those that are being asked to give back grace to God and serve others. Suffering is often our own destiny, through our choices, our free will, but not for the pain, the lesson out of the pain.
I am trying and open to further understanding of the suffering that has played out in my life, particularly the life changing event of 6 years ago. What was so wrong about continuing a legacy business story, leading a lifestyle business, to be passed on to my boys?! I can admit as a result, I have invested more into what I already thought was a strong faith and spirituality. I can consider the possibilities for my boys to reconnect with their believing (so far to no avail, I am afraid). I can see where grace and humility have taken a stronger role. But I think I still have a way to go to embrace the whole lesson. I am sincerely grateful for the act to give back from my experiences and knowledge. However, my heart is still working through the lies, the ‘losses’ (and creating financial freedom-truth be told).
Hmmm, no pain-no gain…day 38!
Thank you if you choose to join the journey. Let's hope it is more fun than tears!