October 21st, Get serious...
Time to, has been time for a while, to get serious about the flow of my money. This, which is my desire to just believe it is managed, is not an option anymore. Oh, to have back the days, years I’ve been acting like it is ok to not make some changes! Or start being more purposeful, budget conscious. Stop waiting to be awarded what was fairly mine – no one is developing a conscious or generosity!
Not the biggest fan of the money conversation. I am grateful that I have always been provided for, relatively, and or I have earned what I need to. Of course, I want to be comfortable - achieve mostly living and giving goals (not stuff and toys), but I feel that Catholic guilt around the idea of being ‘rich’. The goal is financial freedom, financial security – ‘wealthy’ would be a very nice bonus – and mostly applied towards positioning my kids, granddaughters and contributing to my causes. Maybe a second home, rooms decorated as I wish, furniture I would like. Definitely travel.
In the belief energy flows where energy goes – I try the abundance mindset, money is not an issue, there is and will be enough. Struggling to give this up, to the reality of my current situation - more overdue than a high school library book and the fine! Appointment with financial manager booked.
Hmmm, manage the checkbook…day 97!
Thank you if you choose to join the journey. Let's hope it is more fun than tears!