365 Letters to Myself
February 16th - Choosing you...
Listened to a great meditation I want to break down and write about. Starting with the sentence, “power in the moment to change, power of choice.”
This is calling me out for some behavior I had with my mom. The situation called for me to be quiet. To listen. To give empathy. But I chose to be irritated, frustrated and dare I say tried to dominate. If only, I could have challenged my power to do something different, not be predictable for our relationship.
How do I position myself to recognize quicker what I am doing, where I am going with my words and actions, and change in the very moment? I am working on it. I am choosing to be open to these words and awareness is a start. It takes consciousness of presence and a willingness to begin with. Also, I find motivation in aligning to what gives me personal meaning.
Mom is in a fearful place, looking for options, let her journey as she must towards peace (I hope for her).
Changing in the moment and exercising good choices is powerfully supporting being more of who I want to be.
Hmmm, yes, choosing me…day 206!
Thank you if you choose to join the journey. Let's hope it is more fun than tears!